Fear is Okay

I am too afraid to start something
I am afraid to fail
I need approval
Being honest
Becoming…her
What do I like about her?

I feel low. Lower than low
I didn’t know words could be so heavy
Struggling to remain standing
What lifts you up and makes you happy?
I feel like I’m just standing here and life is happening
I think it’s been 5 minutes
It’s been two hours
I don’t have enough time to do anything

Open, honest, judges
An excuse to be blunt
Alone

The only reason I won’t do it,
Make the initial cut is because I know it will hurt too much
I don’t want this to be fucked up any more
My head is twisted, my mind is outside, lost
I’m looking in and there is nothing I trust
My identity is gone
My purpose…who am I?
My strength is limited right now
My ambition?
My goals and dreams fuzzy

Things need to change
I am too afraid to start something
I am afraid to fail
I do need approval, only my own
My identity can be discovered
My strength will build itself up… and me
Goals will come in focus
Meanings will change
Failure will happen
It will be okay
And I will become her

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